We had just come back home from a wedding and I had this shooting pain on the sides of my thighs and my butt. And to go along with it, a dizziness in my head. What a great start, right?
And I thought to myself, WOW! I have really gotten used to staying at home during the whole covid situation.
I got tired after attending a wedding, that’s a new one. And I have hit a new low! But then I blamed it on my thirties.
I love using that line whenever I can, because hey! Mama is too old for some shit! And ever since I turned thirty, I always have this excuse in my arsenal.
(If you have read any of these posts before, you’d know how I love analysing things and coming to the most bizarre conclusions.)
Later that evening, I had another realisation that my period was late. By 15 days! Yes it was a realisation because with PCOS I no longer wait for my period. And I often can’t remember the dates because there is no fixed date of the month. She arrives when she feels like visiting and punches me in my uterus and almost tries to murder me. You know the feeling!
So anyway, without going into the details lol, I realised was late by 15 days.
You see, for some people that can be quite a big deal, for me however, it was nothing. Because I have PCOS. And while mostly my cycle had been regular this year, I often get delayed periods. So it wasn’t a shocker, you know! And I didn’t think much of it, which is strange for me because overthinking in my middle name.
We went to the terrace for our daily evening walk and I felt like I got tired just by climbing up the stairs. And then I thought : “Something is not right.There are too many things happening at once.“
So I did what any adult human would have done. I GOOGLED my symptoms.
YES. I DID.
And apart from the regular search results that you get that range from “It’s nothing to worry about” to “oh you are probably really sick and are going to die” , there was one that was particularly interesting. So all the “symptoms” I had could probably mean that I was pregnant. And I thought, hmm could I be?
And my initial thoughts were “Oh probably not!”
Because we had been trying for quite some time now and the PCOS and the irregular cycles certainly don’t help. But then I thought I might as well check, because “what if I am Pregnant?”
So I talked to my husband about the search results and we decided that it’s better to just take a pregnancy test.
All the while I was praying in my head for it to be true. And was constantly asking Nitin if he thinks it could be true. And every time he’d say “YES!” And then I’d freak out. It was a very anxious afternoon, to say the least.
So, we immediately went to the pharmacy and got a test kit. We came back home and I did the whole peeing on the stick thing. And I waited for 5 minutes.
And as I waited for those 5 minutes, I so wished for the test to read positive. Because we have been wanting this for a really long time now. And I had taken a few pregnancy tests in the past, but none of them was ever a positive.
And in 5 minutes(which seemed like the longest 5 minutes of my life), it did read positive.
I couldn’t believe my eyes at first.
And I can’t possibly express the number of emotions I felt in the next few minutes. I was scared, a little confused, nervous, anxious, but happy, yes mostly happy.
So I went ahead and told my husband. And no, I didn’t do the whole “I surprised my husband” thing because we got the test together and he knew I had taken it. And I think also because I didn’t want to get my hopes up and I almost didn’t believe it to be true.
So it was just a matter of telling him the results.
We both did a little happy dance, hugged and kissed and cried. But then we thought, oh you know we have taken this test quite late at night and the second line is a little faint, we should probably take another one. And decided that I will take the test the next morning.Something about pregnancy tests and how taking them in the morning gives more accurate results.
But I couldn’t wait till the next morning and took one in the evening, and it was positive too.
I immediately ran to my husband, half crying and half smiling and he knew.
We did some more happy dance, a lot more hugs and kisses and cried a bit more.
And then we were confused.
I searched how accurate these pregnancy test kits are. And does getting a positive means I am really pregnant or could it be a false positive.
YES. I DID.
You see when you have waited for something for too long, you want to be sure before you ACTUALLY start celebrating. And again, Google came to my rescue and told me that these test kits are pretty f***ing accurate.
Sorry for the language but can’t contain the excitement.
And I go EEEEEEKKKK!!!!
What to do next? Should we start making a shopping list already? Do we need to start thinking about baby names? Probably should make an appointment with an OBGYN doctor right? But why don’t I FEEL pregnant?
But that’s everything we will think about later. Right now, let’s just be happy and enjoy this moment!
We can’t wait to take you guys along on this crazy crazy journey.
It’s going to be a good one and we can’t wait to see what the future holds for us! 🙂